Monday, March 18, 2013

On loneliness. A bit of a rant.

One may wonder how it could be possible to be lonely when you are married and have a small child with another on the way. But I assure, at times, it is very possible. With spring teasing us in the air on occasion (less in the hills where I live) many groups of friends and family are more actively getting together, planning trips, just getting out in general. And sometime, I can't help but feel a little sad. True, I always have people to hang out with. But there is something to be said for girl time, and friend time, and even family time. And since we've moved, the majority of my local group of friends are un-married, or at least childless. Don't get me wrong, I love my little family with all of my heart and wouldn't trade it for the world, but being childless, you have a certain freedom that us with children, especially children of napping age, do not have. Throw in a full-time job and a freelance business and you really have some planning problems! I feel like the only way I ever see people is to either plan months in advance, or have them come here on one of my 2 days off a week, and living at LEAST a half hour away from most people I know makes that one hard as well. I don't mean to sound like a complainer, though I suppose I am complaining. But really, I just miss my friends. I miss being able to join in on parties, and hikes, and last minute planned adventures.

Finding a proper balance for everything is key, but so hard to do! I am in awe of other working moms who still maintain a social life, how do you do it?! I imagine it's easier if you don't work opposite hours as your spouse. But still. Maybe I should start planning parties here...but then the issue of being so far away comes into play again.

I guess I am just feeling a little ... friend-sick? Does that make sense? What do you working moms do? Is this just going to be the way things go for the next um-teen years or so?

That's all for today-I apologize for my whininess today, I promise my next post will be happier :)

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

the first trimester- round 2

Today I am at 12 weeks exactly. Which means I only have one week left of the first trimester (yahoo!) I have to say, it has been a really easy first trimester (knock-on-wood not over yet!)

When I was pregnant with Joshua, I felt like I had a hangover for 3 months basically. I never got sick, but had no appetite, and wanted nothing but slushies and fruit snacks. This time around it's a whole other game. I had a few bouts of nausea, but nothing bad. Mostly I've just been tired. Tired, and hungry. all. the. time. I don't think I'm supposed to be this hungry this early on, but I am! Really, I am not nauseous when I'm hungry, which can come on in an instant. One second I'm totally fine, and the next I'm ravenous and need to eat instantly or whoever is closest in proximity to me may get a limb chewed on.

Of course, this week I end up catching the family/office cold. Which it seems everyone in my office also has. Colds are really great when there is nothing you can do to feel better other than rest... which is what exactly? I think the last time I rested was before Joshua existed! So I'll just drink water and tea and hope it moves quickly.

On a Joshua note, he had his three-year checkup today. He is a whopping 3 feet tall, and 31.8lbs. He's in the 50th percentile for weight and has dropped down to the 20th for height. I was told it's normal to see a drop at this age because this is when they switch from measuring kids laying down to measuring standing up, and standing is more accurate. We'll see if he is going to catch up next time, or if he's destined to have short Godard family genes like the rest of my family! He did such a good job at his checkup, the only time he made a peep was when they pricked his arm to draw blood.

I really can't believe how fast this pregnancy is already going, and how fast Joshua is growing up, I mean really? How is it possible that he is already 3?!

I think that's all for now. Sorry I can't form a cohesive strain of thought tonight. Must be pregnancy brain? Mom brain? A combination... which just can't be good for anyone!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Joshua turning 3

To my dear Baby Boy;

People always say, 'time flies.' And until I had you I couldn't fully grasp what they meant. I can still remember being pregnant with you, through your birth, like it only happened yesterday. But everyday that I spend with you I see you growing, learning, and changing. 

You're no longer the newborn or infant who couldn't hold up his head, or the toddler struggling to figure out how to feed himself. Now you are a smart, caring, loving, sweet, and amazing little boy. I am so proud to call you my son. I am amazed at your independence, and the way you figure things out so quickly. 

We have had our share of disagreements already, and I'm sure there will be plenty more to come, but I think you already know I will love you through it all, no matter what. 

This birthday is extra special for another reason as well. This will be your last birthday as an only child. In September we will welcome you new baby sister or brother to the world and you will take on another roll, Big Brother! I feel such a range of emotion even thinking about it. I'm sure you will have your own opinions once he/she is here too. Just remember, no matter what you will always be my little boy, and I will never love you any less than I do right now.

Happy Third Birthday, Joshua! Mama loves you.